heart

My heart feels cracked open lately. 

I am wishing it was like this, happy, young, unshattered!

Unfortunately, God doesn't like it like that. He needs to crack the shell I've put around it so He can change my heart and make it whole and useful again.

It's filled with greed, selfishness, self pity, envy, and doubt.

They're not my favorite feelings, either.

The Sermon last week was about Pride and I've put off facing God with my Pride... well I guess today is the day I have no choice. It's making me ill and disgruntled. 

I gotta spill my guts to God and let him fix me, cause I obviously cannot do it alone, like I have been trying all week.

So, this is my heart lately. I am sorry that I've let worldly things interrupt my heart and life. But I am a sinner and it's only natural. 

I.SIN.Daily.

Thankfully this is what I have to redeem me. 

It's not my works, my attitude, my spirit. 

It's Jesus. 

He's the only one that redeems by grace and mercy.

and I would be so very lost without it.

I'd have no hope, no love, no compassion, and no desire for anything just.

This is my new song to sing.

Act.